Any day now..............


So tomorrow is the official "due date" (how I detest that term). I'm feeling so many things right now....excitement to meet my son, anticipation of how labor will start and how the birth will evolve, denial that I'm about to start over with an infant, fear that I won't be able to handle juggling three children, joy over the promise of new life, love for this small but profoundly important person, wonder at my body's ability to grow another human being, gratitude for Ben and the girls for caring so gently for me, sorrow that I'll never experience the miracle of pregnancy again, sheer awe at the power of womanhood.......

Hopefully my next post will be of the baby on the outside! I'm prepared to go a week late, like I did with both girls, but my fingers are crossed that I won't have to! Stay tuned.......

6 Weeks to go.......

I am due to give birth to this boy 6 weeks from today. We had a playdate today with a family that has 2 girls the ages of Liv and Kiki and an 18 mo old boy. I wonder if their mother could see the obvious panic on my face. What have I done? What have I done? That's all I kept asking myself!